Rekindling the Flame: Through Humility” Stewardship Sunday Luke 18:
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And so, I read closely these words from Luke about prayer.
You see in this passage we get two very different examples of prayer. Both are
men and both are praying in the same place, the temple, and yet, what happens
when they begin to pray is very different.
The Pharisee begins by thanking God that he is not like
those other people and names them. He even points to the tax collector
specifically and says “I’m so glad I’m not like this guy over here!” After this
he lists for God the things he has done that God should appreciate - including
fasting and tithing. He is telling God to judge, who to judge and what
standards to use when judging. His prayer is directing God to value him more
than others. If we could see this Pharisee praying, we might see that while he
is praying, his gaze is not directed upward- looking toward the heavens and not
downward in a posture of humility, but rather looking at everyone around him.
While he prays he is comparing himself to what he sees. His prayer posture is a
judgmental side eye to those gathered around him.
The second person praying is the tax collector. As the
original audience well knew- tax collectors were not well-liked. No one liked
the guy who had to chase them down for their money. But in this passage we see
a different view of the tax-collector. It says that he was “standing far off”
with his eyes down, beating his breast as a sign of repentance and crying out
“God, be merciful to me, a sinner!” Unlike the Pharisee, he seems unaware of
those around him and focused only on himself and God. Rather than list his
accomplishments, he identifies himself as a sinner and rather than tell God who
to judge, he begs for mercy. Two very different acts of prayer.
And then at the end of this passage the text says, “for all
who exalt themselves will be humbled, but all who humble themselves will be
exalted.” I wonder … what does that mean … to be exalted? Given the rest of the
story, I don’t think it means exalted in social rank or status, or exalted in
any kind of standings or position. Perhaps then, it means exalted toward God, a
deeper closeness, a coming closer together with God.
In his commentary on this passage, Luke Timothy Johnson
says, “The love of God can so easily turn into an idolatrous self-love; the
gift can so quickly be seized as a possession” he says that the Pharisee can
receive no gift because he cannot stop “counting his possessions.” In other
words, the gift of God’s love and grace has become something he believes he has
or owns or has the rights to, making it no longer a gift but a thing that he
possesses. His heart is not open to receiving a gift because he is constantly
counting what he has. If all prayer is, is coming before God and asserting how
great we are and all that we have, then there is no room for receiving God’s
righteousness. The door is closed, the
Pharisee is content with what he thinks he has and his hands are tightly
clenched around the door, preventing any gift from God from entering. One man
is listing his possessions, the other is asking for a gift, the gift of God’s
mercy. How we pray says a lot about our relationship with God, and whether we
desire to be exalted by God or if we already think we are high enough.
When I think about this tax collector looking down and
crying out before God I think of one of my favorite places in the hospital. I
use the word favorite with some explanation. It’s not my favorite because it is
the easiest or the funnest or the happiest or the prettiest. It is my favorite
because it is where I consistently experience God’s presence. It is not a fun
place, it is not a happy place, it is not pretty. But it is where I have
experienced some of my most meaningful visits as a chaplain and when I talk to
the staff there they know exactly what I mean when I say it’s my favorite because
they too find it to be very meaningful work. It’s the Detox Unit. It is where
people go when they are high or drunk and need medical assistance to come off
of the substance they have used. It is not a place where anyone hopes to be and
yet I feel profoundly honored and humbled every time I go there.
It is a place filled to the brim with humility. There is a
popular song on the radio that talks about alcoholism and going to an AA
meeting and the singer says “nobody walks through these doors on a winning
streak.” No one is entering Detox with a smug smile or bloated ego. It is a
humbling place.
When I first started doing rounds there I went with a bit
of trepidation. All I knew was that some time ago there had been an incident
and then chaplains stopped going there, but my manager wanted to rebuild the
relationship between the unit and the Spiritual Care Department. I wondered
what kind of state people might be in. Would I encounter people who were angry
or frantic or violent? Immediately I saw that wasn’t the case and I had to
check whatever biases or assumptions I had at the door. What I did encounter
was open and tender hearts. People of all ages and all backgrounds ready to
open their hearts and praying for God’s mercy. And I am humbled to join them in
those prayers. It has often become a sacred space where I sit with people as
they, like the tax collector, bare their soul before God and grasp at the gifts
of mercy the Holy Spirit offers in that space. Like the tax collector, so often
they are not looking around at others or telling God what to do, but reaching
out from the depths of their soul for a connection with the source of eternal
love and unmerited grace. And in that humility I do feel the Holy Spirit’s
presence. I feel the presence of God in the light breaking through broken
hearts. And I hear the whispers of hope in the relinquishing of control, the
admission that we are lost, we are flawed humans and we are not God. There is
something really beautiful and really freeing in falling before God in
humility.
Sometimes we may think that when all is well, when we have
all our needs met, then our faith will be strongest, but the truth is that
often God feels nearest when our hearts are broken. Sometimes peace comes when
we admit we don’t have it.
I have been thinking about this as I reflect on
stewardship. Sometimes people cringe at the mention of stewardship- thinking it’s
about taking your possessions, pressuring you to give up what you don’t want to
give up. I get that. But I see stewardship as a recognition that all that we
have is gift, not possession. Laying ourselves and all that we have before God
and praying that what we offer will be transformed by God’s grace into bricks,
building blocks for the Kingdom of God here on earth. Or doors, creating
openings for the work of the Holy Spirit on earth. And that is why we celebrate
it and we make it part of worship. It is offering what we have to God and doing
so with hope, hope that God will move in and around and through us.
Honestly, that’s what I do over and over again when I pray
with people. I offer the inadequate words that I have with hope that God will
move in and around and through that person that I am praying with. And the more
I pray, the more I am aware that this act of prayer is not something I can
master or perfect or win at. It will always be my best attempt at putting words
to the wordless cries of the heart. But my prayers, our prayers that we pray
together, they are an offering, sometimes a shout and sometimes a whimper of
hope coming from a place that longs to connect to the source of unending love.
And whether we are a Pharisee or a tax collector, happy or sad, in a Cathedral
or a Detox Unit, God hears us and for that I am so grateful.
