One summer when I was
young, one of my neighborhood friends suggested we walk up the street and enter
the high school and watch my sister’s dress rehearsal for her dance recital. I
can’t remember if I questioned this idea, but I do remember that I went. We
often ran around on the block through neighbor’s back yards and the school was
just at the top of the street so it probably seemed ok. Until … we came out of
the rehearsal and saw the whole neighborhood frantically looking for us.
Remember, this is before cell phones so no one knew where we were. My mom was
so worried and I was in so much trouble. I received my punishment … I was
grounded. Right in the middle of summer, the best days for playing,
particularly in Northeast Ohio where I lived. Instead of running around with
the neighborhood friends, I would have lots of time to think, reflect and
wallow. Lots of time to think about my decision-making, who it effects and how
I would do it differently. And, honestly, I don’t know that I was ever grounded
again … so I guess you could say it was effective.
In the Gospel reading we also find Jesus “led by the Spirit
in the wilderness.” He too is taken away from all that is familiar and
comfortable and brought to a wilderness filled with temptation and risk. In a
sense, it’s like he is grounded as a child would be- sent away from all
pleasures, alone with his thoughts. But he is quickly met with temptation. It
says that “for forty days he was tempted by the devil.” The first temptation is
to turn the stone into bread. Remember that Jesus is fasting and has eaten
nothing. This goes beyond mental temptation, this is physical temptation, going
against the strong urge the body has to survive. The next temptation is
authority over “all the kingdoms of the world.” This could certainly have been
a more efficient way of Jesus influencing people- rather than all the
relational/preaching/praying/healing- just outright authority, demands and power-
with none of the messy stuff like touching hurting people, threats against you
and unending arguments with religious officials. The last temptation is to
throw himself from the pinnacle of the temple and test that he will be caught
by angels. This is putting God to the test, demonstrating glory. It must have
been a dizzying offer- standing at the pinnacle, looking down, lightheaded from
lack of food and the potential for a moment of dazzling power.
In his commentary on this passage, Luke Timothy Johnson
says, “the tests would suggest to the Hellenistic reader the threefold categories
of vice: love of pleasure, love of possessions, love of glory. Jesus’ refusal
of these lures would identify him as a righteous person, a sage truly capable
of teaching virtue.” (Sacra Pagina: Luke, pg 76). It seems that some things are
timeless- like temptations. We are still in a world fraught with temptations
pulling as hard as they can to bring us down the path of love of pleasure, love
of possessions and love of glory.
And here he is, out in the wilderness, away from everyone,
where no one can see, hungry, faced with a path of suffering and pain … and all
that anyone could desire is presented to him. And he walks away. He walks right
out of that wilderness and right into preaching. He immediately begins his
ministry. He reads from Isaiah, “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he
has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim
release to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to let the
oppressed go free.” And just as he immediately begins his ministry, he
immediately is rejected. He instantly goes from being offered power and glory
at the pinnacle of the temple to being run out of town by an angry mob and
being offered death and pain as they try to push him off a cliff. His ministry
begins with rejection.
I don’t know about you, but I can say that in my own life,
the times when I most need grounding, when I most need my heart steadily set on
God, when I most need to be sure of who I am, is when I am facing rejection.
Whether that is rejection from others or rejection from the way I hoped things would
be. And watching those we love get rejected can be especially painful. We do
our best to give children a strong sense of their belovedness so that when the
rejection comes- when we send them off to the tough world of socialization,
they will stay grounded, remembering that they are loved, remembering there is
more to life than the painful feelings rejection brings and assured that they
are precious in God’s sight. Jesus was grounded, he has been through the wilderness,
he was sure of his relationship with God, he knew who he was and so he passes
through the angry crowd and keeps at it.
Perhaps you are feeling like your feet have come off the ground,
like you are caught spinning in a whirlwind, unable to find the ground, reaching
out and longing for peace, for stability but not sure where it went. There is
certainly much in this world to leave us spinning. I don’t need to tell you
that we live in a divisive and heated climate, where emotions run high and
grace seems in short supply. We live in a fast paced world that is constantly
pushing us toward those vices of love of possessions, love of power and love of
glory. Where the road of peace is messy and hard but we are surrounded by superficial
promises of an easier, more efficient path. Where morals and values are often exchanged
for money and power. A world where there are endless things on our phones to
distract us from our own thoughts. And perhaps, you are looking for grounding-
solid footing on the solid rock that is Christ.
Today is the first Sunday of Lent. It is a time when we
reflect on what tempts us, what distracts us and what pulls us away from
walking the deeper path with Christ. It is a set apart time when we can look at
the things in our life that leave us spinning and the things that ground us.
When we are called to root out that which is fleeting, selfish and shallow and
dig our feet into that which is steady, loving and deep. Practices like prayer,
journaling, walks, scripture reading, regular worship and deep breathing are
not hard to do but are so very valuable and needed. Things that give our hearts
space to feel the heart of God, quiet to hear the Spirit’s guidance and clarity
to think about decisions we have made and how we want to make decisions in the
future. It’s like we are being grounded. Told to step away from the things that
are not life-giving and make room for the things that are life-giving. A chance
to be reminded that beyond all the felt urgency and chaos and stress, we are
part of a much larger story. A story of God’s unending love, of Jesus’ journey
of salvation and the continual relationship God calls us into.
I work as a hospital chaplain and last Wednesday I was
scheduled to be there at 7 am to help distribute ashes for Ash
Wednesday. If you think about it, Ash Wednesday is kind of an odd thing we do. We
pray prayers of repentance, we are told we will die and then we walk away with
dirt smeared on our heads. I’ve always loved it for all of its oddness and the
way it takes us out of our normal routines and calls us into this special
Lenten journey. But at the hospital it took on a different context that I
couldn’t help but reflect on as my thumb wiped across forehead after forehead. Foreheads
of family members trying to appear steady as they walked their loved one to surgery,
foreheads of those who were sick and in pain, foreheads of nurses leaving an
overnight shift of medicines, messes and trying their best to bring comfort,
foreheads that could only be reached by slightly lifting the surgical caps of
surgeons who quickly headed back for the next procedure and foreheads of fellow
chaplains who will go and look into the eyes of those who are afraid, alone and
facing death.
As
I repeatedly placed my thumb into the small cup of ashes I thought about how the
words I was saying, “remember that you are dust and to dust you shall return”
were not shocking or unusual for these people. The reminder of death’s reality
is part of their life. They do remember that they are dust and to dust they
shall return because death is all around them. And as I thought of this, I felt
deeply moved at how this simple practice put their experience in a larger
story. A reminder for them not of a cold hard reality of death, but rather a
much larger salvation story that death is but a part of. A reminder of the
peaceful and loving reality of death and that not even death can separate us
from the love of God. A reminder that we are not alone. We are all in this life
and death together, it is something that we all continually learn to accept.
And as I watched the dark bits of ash circle down the drain when I washed my
hands in the hospital bathroom, I felt grounded. I knew the Holy Spirit was in
that place, in the people whose eyes met mine when I touched their foreheads
and in me- and the swirling chaos of the world felt quieter even with all the
beeping of machines and the beds being pushed down hallways. God’s love was
there, God’s love is here, let us ground ourselves in that love and a peace
that passes all understanding. Amen
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